Father testo – Phora

Yeah, alone in this room, just me and my consciousWondering if the lords really watching causeIf he is then tell me why I've been going through hellLately and I just don't feel like heavens an optionLook, I feel the guilt pouring inI wonder if he feels my painCause everyday its getting more intenseMoms could barely afford the rentHad to do some shady shit to surviveBut I just hope the lord forgivesIs he forgiving like they say he isIs there anyway away from thisIs there even anyplace where kids go when they pass awayI heard somebody say there isBut I don't know who to trust no moreAnd grandma said I really shouldn't cuss no moreBut I just tell her "I'mma try" and knowing I'mma stay the sameI try to change so many times, I can't adjust no more Shit, but father when will I see more smiles and frownsWhere do I go when I'm buried deep in the groundFather why is the world never holding me upI feel like I'm always letting you downI feel like I'm always letting you down I feel like I'm always letting you downI often wonder bout who I'm a disappointment toBut no matter how good you do, they still point at youSometimes I don't know how I get through the dayCause even though you see me smile, it don't mean I'm okayI just don't wanna be bothered with questionsFather why these cats always causing problemsI've been constantly stressingShit, I wonder if he's even listening to meSearching for answers, but ain't nobody giving em' to mePlus my girl needs attention, I can feel the tensionMy pops is on a drinking bingeAnd he's on the break of an interventionBut he taught me so much with only his actionsWhat I learned from him, he would never imagineIf there was something that I would want him to knowEvery mistake he made, it was all meant to happenNo time wasted cause I learned from it allMade me a better man inside, made me learn when I fallThere's always a reason to get back up on your feetSo if you hear me lord, I hope you could answer this for me Father when will I see more smiles and frownsWhere do I go when I'm buried deep in the groundFather why is the world never holding me upI feel like I'm always letting you downI feel like I'm always letting you down